Of all the special knit hats I collected for Finn,
this was the only one he ever wore.
Nobody would have ever have seen this photo if he hadn't died.
I was just playing around with the hat and the backdrop,
seeing if I liked the two together.
I was just preparing for a photo session,
this was taken with my iPhone.
I never even got to take a single photo of Finn with my camera.
I love looking at his little body,
the little wrinkles on his back,
his eyes open, him all curled up
still used to being inside me.